Sunday, September 30, 2018

A Voice

"There is a voice that doesn't use words. Listen. "

I have been hearing that voice for a long time now. I only began to listen to it of late. It is a voice of love. It is a voice of peace, of oneness.

It speaks to me of the answers I have been seeking. It tells me I am needed where I am, to accomplish a certain task through my life's work.

The reason I'm afraid to listen to this voice, is that it tears apart my life as I know it. Is the butterfly ready to leave the cocoon?

It tells me I need to let go of all that I love. And I realise... to hold on is not love, to let be, is.

Yet I struggle to let you go, my love. I am but, a mere human. I feel you every second in my entire being. I always will.

It tells me to clean my heart, so completely... so that the universe may fill it gently with pure love.

I listen to you... and I begin to clean my heart...

Today, I let all the pain you have caused me into the waters that flow around me.

Today, I let every single tear that I have shed for you fall onto the roots of lilies. Take them, o strong plants... and turn them into the blessing he needs.

Today, I let all the anxiety I have felt and blow it into the air around me. Take it with you, o wind, and carry it to the fire gods.

Today, I let the rejection I have felt repeatedly and give it to the red soil of my home. Every drop of my blood draws strength from this soil. O earth, absorb this pain, so I may serve you again.

Today, I forgive you for not being able to accept what I, in my ego, wanted to give to you. Who am I to give anything?  Into nothingness... I release my ego.

And so... I empty myself... scars remain... may pure love heal them... may I once again be given the chance to serve.

O Voice... I can actually see you smile.

Thursday, September 20, 2018

A 'bandhan'

Dear Brother-of-mine,

When you left, you took a piece of us with you.
I demand of the universe that you return that to us.

When you left, you taught us lessons in abiding love and compassion.
I demand that I am allowed one last time to practice that lesson on you.

When you left, you bound disagreeable people in a unique agreeable bond.
I demand that I am allowed to choose quarrels over losing you.

This day comes every year, and I shall cherish my bonds year after year.
And yet, my heart yearns for the chance to cherish that one bond.

Jyothi