This is my thirtieth year on this earth in this life. And what a year!
I am deeply in debt, the most I've ever been till date, and yet, it is the most hopeful year of my life.
What did I do?
This year, I finally established the manufacturing unit I had envisioned. Even four months later, it feels surreal to stand in my unit and see it actually happen. I had no money to start with, but here it stands.
Yes, this was a very tough year. The construction itself drew away a lot of energy, the haggling, the convincing, oh, and the decision making. I tried something new, and I succeeded. Strangely, relief is the strongest emotion here. Had I failed, it would have ruined me and my family. But, yes, it happened, all the troubles were worth it.
Also, this year, I have taken much more charge of everything, in a sense I have reaffirmed that I am indeed the decision maker around here. Sometimes, my shoulders ache from all the responsibility. So why did I do it? Simply because, it was do or die, and I'm a survivor.
Monetarily, I'm in debt, a lot, and yet, I know I can build a way to stability in a big way, in a few more years. Whenever I'm in doubt, I can hear dad say, "Water's up to your neck, now what's the fear, all you have to do is duck in."
Yes, I've learned a lot of lessons the hard way this year! I've become a loud "goonda", but I have no choice. Being loud does matter. At least in day to day life in business.
I've learned to deal with people, and negotiate. I've learned to get what I want out of a deal. And I've learned to be brave. Lots of things terrify me, but I've learned to not let it show through.
And most of all, I've learnt to handle grief, to hide it well.
I've also learned to trust my intuition. It's probably what saved Dad from an amputation. I go cold thinking about it.
So yes, it's a very hopeful year, if I've survived this past year, then there's nothing I can't survive or claw my way out of.
I am deeply in debt, the most I've ever been till date, and yet, it is the most hopeful year of my life.
What did I do?
This year, I finally established the manufacturing unit I had envisioned. Even four months later, it feels surreal to stand in my unit and see it actually happen. I had no money to start with, but here it stands.
Yes, this was a very tough year. The construction itself drew away a lot of energy, the haggling, the convincing, oh, and the decision making. I tried something new, and I succeeded. Strangely, relief is the strongest emotion here. Had I failed, it would have ruined me and my family. But, yes, it happened, all the troubles were worth it.
Also, this year, I have taken much more charge of everything, in a sense I have reaffirmed that I am indeed the decision maker around here. Sometimes, my shoulders ache from all the responsibility. So why did I do it? Simply because, it was do or die, and I'm a survivor.
Monetarily, I'm in debt, a lot, and yet, I know I can build a way to stability in a big way, in a few more years. Whenever I'm in doubt, I can hear dad say, "Water's up to your neck, now what's the fear, all you have to do is duck in."
Yes, I've learned a lot of lessons the hard way this year! I've become a loud "goonda", but I have no choice. Being loud does matter. At least in day to day life in business.
I've learned to deal with people, and negotiate. I've learned to get what I want out of a deal. And I've learned to be brave. Lots of things terrify me, but I've learned to not let it show through.
And most of all, I've learnt to handle grief, to hide it well.
I've also learned to trust my intuition. It's probably what saved Dad from an amputation. I go cold thinking about it.
So yes, it's a very hopeful year, if I've survived this past year, then there's nothing I can't survive or claw my way out of.
